By Simon Lawrence
I woke early this morning, about six, it was still dark and I could hear the soft tap of rain on the deck just above my head. I had been dreaming; something hideous, yet now it was only a feeling, and switching on the light the darkness disappeared as quickly as the memory of my nightmare.
A nightmare is nothing but an illusion, gone as quickly as we wake, it does not last, it dies with the light… it is the world of the ego, a dream of what we think we are, usually of our fears... that part of our mind that's the delusional us… merely the thinking we all have that is apart not a part of who we really are.
We cannot deny our ego exists so long as we continue to give it form and a meaning… yet when we learn to quieten its influence we are left with a feeling of awe and wonder. Do you remember when we were children, we experienced a lot of that, because then we did not have the illusion or delusion of our ego questioning constantly who we really are.
When we learn that the ego is nothing, that it’s the ego that creates the darkness in our lives, the stress and the worry, the competition and the constant striving to be good enough, then the light comes, the ego is where the darkness was when we switched on the light. It is like the dream I had this morning… where is it? It has gone, nowhere to be found, it is truly nothing and nowhere. Where maliciousness was, now there is only civility. What is the ego? Where maliciousness was… where is the ego, in a malicious dream that seemed only real while I was dreaming it.
So what is a life of awe? It is a dream as well! But to live in this dream rather than the one created by the ego, is to walk happy, to smile, to be unstressed by anything. To feel good about who we are, whatever the mirror in the bathroom or the reflection of the life we see all about us has allowed us to create in our mind! And to look with a wry smile at what we left behind.
What we left behind was our ego! The tape in our mind that has played the same tune for so long has now been quietened so we can hear the harmony of the real us. We've been there all along but drowned in the cacophony of false words and thoughts we paid such attention too.
When the ego is quietened and the world of awe is your constant companion you will see a sudden brightness conceal the world your ego once made.